Like any good-hearted yoga hippy, I put alot of faith in “The Universe“. I honestly believe that if we manifest (plus do alot of groundwork)-we can achieve what we need.
But, it’s easy to get disillusioned in this hippy ‘Universe” for all of us.
Maybe your car gets booted, maybe you don’t get the job you want, maybe the guy you put your hopes and dreams into ends up being just another version of the frat boys you avoided in college.
So, you become dejected, lost and loose faith. And, you become fearful to ask for what you really want.
For me, I allowed my dreams and wishes to become smaller. Instead of praying in my corner and asking for what I REALLY want (a career that aligns with my ethics, health that allows me to keep making athletic goals, a true soulmate to tackle life with) – I’ve shortened the list and settled. And, my soul suffered as a result.
This is a common thread- we begin life optimistic and saying “Yes” to what comes our way. Then, we get knocked down a few times, find our ego bruised and recoil. That’s where fear sets in and a replay of the insecurities that tell us that we are not worthy enough to have the life we imagine.
This is a trick of the ego, that image-based falsehood that relies on outside validation to build itself up. Your ego (while it does have a function to help us keep boundaries as individuals) also loves to build upon bad experiences creating a negative-feedback loop that replays old ‘failures’ as if they are never-ending.
Remember the time that guy/girl in Jr. High rejected you? Of COURSE you do-that’s your ego attaching itself to past, trying to influence the present to keep itself fed. The Ego-based Identity seeks only that which strengthens it-the rest is seen as a threat.
Through yoga and meditation, we can reconnect with our Divine Self and the acknowledgement that as interconnected, divine beings-we are worthy of our biggest dreams.
Marianne Williamson says it best:
“Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Whoam I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
Lately, I’ve had brave friends who have dared to see beyond their ego and live up to their dreams.
People who have dared to ask for a Soulmate and rejected the temptation to just to feed their ego. Ones who have held onto the belief that they ARE worthy of true love and connection and realize it’s bigger than sport-dating.
Ones who have dared to imagine and live their dreams: throwing aside the expect\
ations of the ‘norm’- 80hour work weeks sitting at a desk, returning home to McMansions, seeking validation in SUVs, designer clothes, enhanced boobs or Viagra-infused lingams.
This takes evolution, the ability to risk embarrassment, and a somewhat-death of the EGO which will certainly fight for it’s status.
It’s brave work, but we are meant for greatness aren’t we?
Shine and ask for it!